after taking these photos, i must have spent a good solid hour on the internet reading blogs and news. what is it about sucking up information that i am addicted to? i look up to see it's already almost 7 and half my evening is gone. it's especially bad at night. i swear, the closer it gets to bedtime, the faster i click. Looking, looking for a "hit" of something interesting to satisfy my cravings before bed. i've even clicked to check out facebook WHILE I'M ALREADY ON IT! who does that?
the worst time-waster is looking at recaps or articles about shows i don't even watch, like "true blood" and "game of thrones." i can't watch them because i don't have cable, but i don't even want to watch those shows. for me personally, they are way too graphic and violent. i can be a real light-weight when it comes to that stuff. (i abhor horror movies. the scariest/goriest i can do is like, "tremors." haha..) i have watched clips on youtube and such and they turn my stomach in a sick fascinating way. so when i see an article about what happened on last night's show, or a new plot twist, or whatever, what do i do instead of merrily clicking on my way? i go down the internet rabbit hole looking at what other people have to say about this stuff that i can't even watch. what the heck is that about? is it because of my information addiction? my need to know what other people are doing/talking about? but did i really need to know the details of the red wedding? why did i watch the clip of someone slitting another person's throat? was that necessary to my person? what do i get out of that?
it's almost like i'm pushing my own envelope, seeing how far i can go before i've crossed the line. maybe in some way i feel inferior to everyone watching. like i'm a big baby and can't handle what other people enjoy as entertainment. so this is my way of "participating" even though i'm not really. is that why i also read character backgrounds and google things like "what is a direwolf"?
so many questions, but i haven't pinpointed the answer yet. i'm not sure it's even necessary, i just find it confusing that i can spend so much time clicking on stuff that i'm wary of, yet curious about. i guess that's human nature.
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